~Em~

Lets seeeeee....

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 00:24:44 GMT

Welllllll its Tuesday and I only have one class left of the week!!!!!!!!!! YESSSS! How exciting is that??? Im pumped thats forsure! This week should be alright. Tomorrow I have class then I'm cleaning the house like its my job, then I have to go to my actual job at 7 till about 11ish, then HOSS is commmmmming to stay with me for the night. Her and Molly are bunkin up here to keep me company. Then on Thanksgiving my brother Al is coming to visit me, were gonna go shopping and eat a nice dinner, hopefully somewhere descent, but were just hopin somethings open LoL.. Then Friday I work alllllllllllll day and I also wooorrrk alllllllllllllll day Saturday. So work should keep me pretty occupied! I cannot beleive this semester is almost over! I cannot wait! YESSSSSS! LoL. But thats it for me, now im about to go relax and watch some television... WOOOHOO!! I know how to have a goood time!
Thats it for now..

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Tue, 22 Nov 2005 06:45:08 GMT

Ok, so the weekends already over, actually I cant beleive its already Tuesday. Unfortunatly this is the day when everyone leaves me. I'll survive though, lol. This weekend ended up being pretty boring, but I didnt mind at all. On Thursday I worked then just went home and went to bed. Friday I layed around and then went over to Ash's to hang with my lovely friends. It was fun and we played slap bag which was definetly a plus. Saturday I slept in till about 1 then I worked from 2-9 and then I went over to Linz and Rach's place and ended up passing out. Sunday I slept most of the day, and then me and all the girls went out to dinner for a Thanksgiving dinner for myself. I am truly thankful to have those girls in my life.
So that basically sums up my weekend. Now I'm basically waiting on e-bay to see if I win the bid on this kick ass phone! Hopefully I'll get it because I it would be a lot cheaper :). Sooo yea, thats it. Now I a just get to hang out and look forward to my brother coming up to spend Thanksgiving with me. I'm also very lucky to have such an amazing family.
Soo yea thats it. Im feeling a lot better now, I was really homesick but now for some reason, I'm not. I realized i like it hear too much to miss home. Even though I miss my fam and friends, I just feel a lot better now. Soo yea thats about it with me. Wish me luck on the cell phone, I realllllly want it bad, and def. need it. Well goooodnight.

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Wed, 16 Nov 2005 23:11:42 GMT

So it's pretty sweet, that for Thanksgiving I will be spending it at my house in Kalamazoo by myself. I know I'm pretty lucky. I'll be here while the entire rest of my family enjoys their dinner all together at my parents house! This day man just keeps gettin better and better as the hours pass! Gosh im sooo fuckin pissed! the only way I could go home, is if I headed home on thanksgiving day, stayed over night and left the next morning by nine!!!! That means about 6 hours of driving in less than 24 hrs.. THAT SOUNDS FUN! Sorry I know this isnt fun to read but I had to get this out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's Been A While..

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 02:32:12 GMT

Well, it has definetly been a while since I've written in this, but I guess it's never to late, right? Well not a whole lot has changed since my last entry. My life hasnt gotten to much more exciting, and nothing really sweet has happened (unfortunatly). I'm not gonna lie though, this weekend was a ton of fun, even though I got wwwwaaaaayyyy to drunk! But yes, it was Western/Central weekend, and Western kicked their ass! We partied all weekend, and a lot of people from home came up which was nicceee. I really have no clue what else to say. I thankfully got a job up here, working at Kohls in the Jewelry depart, hopefully I wont get fired even though I fucked up like 564395694 times so far. But yea, I'm just irresponsible and I've definetly learned that the past couple months. SooOoo Ya, thats it with me. Same old shit, just another day.

It's been a while!

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 20:30:16 GMT

Well I havent wrote in this journal since last year living in the dorms! Definetly a lot has changed since then. The summer fricken flew by, I must admit tho that it was one of the funnest summers Ive ever had, making it even harder to come back up to Western. Although I miss everyone like crazy, I love it here! I live in a house, and although my room is tiny it doesnt even bother me at all. I just basically sleep and do homework in it. This weekend should be a good time. Becky and James are coming up then I think a few girls are too. I hope it doesnt get too crazy! But yea, thats about it for now, I dont even know if I'll write in this too much, but enjoy to those who read it

This is for all the college kids...

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 06:08:32 GMT

In a few weeks...

A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before. We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people bargaining in without calling or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best friends aren't in the bed next to your room?

Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived in it for nineteen years.

But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our best friends through the toughest times of their lives, something their even best friends at home couldn't be there for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend. We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were always there for each other afterwards. There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our place between these two worlds.

In a few weeks.... are you ready?

Another weekend comes to an end....

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 04:55:16 GMT

Man one of my last weekends of the semester has come and gone! I cannot beleive that it is almost over! This weekend was a lot of fun. It basically started Friday. I woke up at about 2 in the afternoon, I know thats late but I didnt go to bed till like 4:00 okay, lol. Well once I woke up, Des Ash and I decided to play frisbee by the pond. We played for almost an hour and we laughed our asses off. Let me just say Ash isnt very good, me and des were def. considering cutting her from the team, haha. Then after that me and Des got some dinner and I got in the shower. When I was finally ready, we got the beer pong table all set up and basically had a few beers and waited for our guests to arrive.

Around 8:30 Ash and Andrew got here. I was sooo happy to see them both. While we were hanging out we went to the store to get some chasers and things. When we got back Nick, Jason, Terry, and Heather were here. I was sooo pumped to see them all. So like the minute they got here the drinking began. We started playing beer pong, Jay was my partner, it was a lot of fun. Then finally Becky James and Ryan got here, and as soon as we knew it everyone was drinking and having a good time. Well we drank and drank and I drank even more, but it was a lot of fun.I always have such a blast when I hang with Beck, Jay, Nick and James. They are like the funniest people I know and I always have a good time when I'm around them. The only downfall for the night was the fact that I slept walk, LoL.. thats me for ya! haha.

Then Saturday we didnt wake up until about 1:00, then we all went out to eat to Applebees. Then we said our goodbyes and me and Des headed back to our little home. We cleaned A LOT and then we both got ready and stuff. Later on Saturday me Des and Jess went and did a little shopping at Target then headed to the movie store to rent some flicks. We rented Red Rose, Rosemary's Baby, and Disturbing Behavior. So we got Sub Way and came back. We started the movies at about 10 and was up until about 6:30! I must say it was one of the funnest times I've had. It might sound lame but I dont care. I love just hangin out with the girls.

Then today I slept till about 3 then fell back asleep at 5 and didnt wake up till about 8. Then I just watched the TV and got a sandwich from the Cafeteria. Nothing exciting at all!

Lately I have been thinking about moving home and I get a horrible feeling in my stomach. I mean dont get me wrong, I love everybody at home and I loove my Family so much, but I just cant imagine not living here. It is going to be soooo weird being at home again. When I think about leaving I get homesick (from school). I just thinks its weird cause I have never felt this way, its always been the other way around. I just don't want to grow apart from my friends and I dont want things to change. I love how it is now. I am going to miss Des and Jess so much it's not even funny. It's crazy how well you get to know people by living with them. And now I don't even know if I am going to get my job back at the police station. And if I dont I am screwed!!!! Like Completly!! Ahh I guess I'm just stressed about a lot of things lately and I have been thinking to hard about stupid shit (one of my worst qualities). I dont know why I do this to myself. I worry soo much about other people and things, when they could care a less. I guess it's just how I am though, can't change me.

Well now that I got some things off my mind I guess I'm gonna lay down. I will write later. Goodnight!

Feel Like I Havent Updated In A While!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 07:24:05 GMT

Oookay, well I can definetly say this weekend was a fricken crazy one, filled with nothing but the consumption of beer!! I havent drank that much in sooooooooooooooooooooooo fricken looong!!! It all began that late Wednesday afternoon when me and the girls decided we wanted to drink. LoL. Soo we all got our heads together and pondered on how we could get some beer and then our good buddy Josh said he was making a beer run, so we hopped at that opportuniy! Soo we set up the beer pong table in my room and while we were waiting for our beer me and Lauren decided to smoke a little pot lol.. Proly not a good idea before you drink! Soo are beer finally arrived and we played beer pong for like hours and then I passed out at like 4:30 LoL.

Then I woke up at about 1 Thursday afternoon and got up, got ready then went to math. After math we all decided to get some more beer. Yep were pretty CrAzY like that. Then me and Kristin smoked, lol. Then Josh pulled through once again and we got some more beer. You should of seen how much beer they got, their entire futon was completly covered it was out of hand. So we played beer pong once again and we all definetly got trashed!!! Then I think around about 3 or so I passed out, it was a pretty fun night.

Friday I woke up at about 1 or so and felt like shit! I got up got ready and basically sat around and waisted the day away. At about 9 me and Kris got some pizza and watched a movie, it was a little date, haha, jk. The I thought i was tired so I decided to rest up on friday to prepare for saturday..

Then Saturday rolled around and some of the boys from Warren came up. We just got really drunk. It was fun until everyone except me Eric and Nick passed out. Then things got really weird and confusing. It's the same thing everytime and I DONT GET IT! But I'm over it..

Then Sunday we all just hung out in the morning then I layed around and stuff nothing exciting. The I fell asleep at about 7:30 then slept till 9:30 the next morning. I could def. say I got rested up with about 14 hrs. of sleep that was very needed.

Well It's Wednesday now and I am officialy done with college in 13 days!! I can't beleive I'm almost done. Hopefully I will be gettin my job back for the summer, if not I wont be comin back here next year thats forsure. But thats about it, I really should get to bed! Goodnight!

Answer The Following Questions Using Only Song Titles Of One Band/Musician..

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 05:35:59 GMT

My band of choice is ... Barenaked Ladies!

1. Are you a male or female? I’ll Be That Girl

2. What do you look like? New Kid On The Block

3. How do you think others feel about you? Crazy

4. How do you feel about yourself? Blame it on me

5. Describe your current/last relationship: Falling For The First Time

6. What would you rather be doing? If I Had A Million Dollars

7. Describe where you live: Long Way Back Home

8. Describe how you love: I Love You

9. Where do you want to be? Hello City

10. Share a few words of wisdom: Never Is Enough

WHAT THE FUCK??!!!

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 02:08:17 GMT

I had sooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun last night, and I want to have fun again but some people are just really frustrating me. I WANNA GO FUCKIN CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Thats How I feel right now!

Gettin fucked up tonight with the girls then hopefully going out!

Tomorrow I'm gettin even more fucked up, and I don't care what anyone thinks!

I just wanna have a good time, is that to much to ask??

Why Does everything have to be soooo stressful and complicated... It's drinking, whats complicated about it???

Aww I thought this was cute..

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 04:20:32 GMT

When the keg has been kicked, when the liquor has run dry, when we've fallen out of love with that "perfect" guy, when the party is over, when we're passed out on the floor, when we can't keep kicking ass in beer pong anymore, when we've fallen down, when the world has turned cold and we're sitting in our rockers getting old, we'll still be best friends cause we all know the deal, we're each other's girls and we'll always keep it real.:-D

<3 That goes out to all my girls out there, I love you guys soo much. <3

Instructions: Write 15 statements directed at 15 different people. Never tell which one is for who.

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 22:04:12 GMT

These are probably going to be so obvious but here it goes...

Honestly I do not know what I would do without you! You are such an amazing friend and most of my greatest memories of high school involve you. You have been nothing but an amazing friend to me and I just know our friendship is going to last forever. You can make me laugh in any situation and I can always count on you to track down some alcohol for me. From anywhere from Alpha Betta to just driving around in your car or staying out all night to party it up, we've had such good times. Our concerts or our long chats on the phone. No matter what you will always be a best friend to me. I love you and can't wait to hang out over the summer.

I would have never thought that over just a few months I would have a new best friend. My first year of college would not have been complete without you. You are such an amazing girl and an awesome friend. You can always cheer me up when I'm down and you have a way of making me feel better. Even though you get down on yourself, you shouldnt. You have everything and I'm so jealous of all of it. I don't know what I am going to do without you next year, who am I gonna stay up late with to watch movies? Or who is gonna drink Captains with me? I want you to know that next year I will only be a phone call away. I cannot wait for this summer it's going to be a blast. I love ya!

I don't know if you'll read this but, you are the greatest guy I know. You are by far "The Life of The Party" in my eyes. I don't even know where to begin. We have had soooo many laughs over the past like year and a half and ive made soo many great memories with you. I'm so happy we started hanging out and became good friends because high school wouldnt have been the same without you. Anywhere from laughing our asses off in Ms. Dombrowski's class or staying up like all night at my house when everyone else passed out and then going to school the next morning. I hope we stay friends and maybe this summer we can party a week straight at my house LoL. Your soo crazy and I miss you tons!

Never could I have imagined being soo lucky to have such an amazing best friend like you. I know we have been friends FOREVER but not until this year have I realized how lucky I am to have you. You are one of the greatest people I know, and I can't imagine my freshman year in college without you. You are such an amazing girl with so many talents and aspirations. You are always there to cheer me up and make me feel better. You would do anything for any of your friends and always put everyone else first. Your like a sister to me and I don't ever want that to change. I know I can always count on you for anything but I know who I can come to, to party it up! Although were the partiers up here, I am glad because Ive had a blast! LoL. I hope we live together next year because we will have a fricken good time! I want you to know that I'm here for you no matter what, and I love you!

Hmm.. I dont even know what to say! You are my Brother and I don't know what I would have done without you there for me in high school. Even though were not that close anymore, I still consider you one of my best guy friends. You can make me laugh at anything and we've had sooooo many awesome memories. I will never forget any of our adventures to CJ Berrymores or just driving around hanging out or jumping on your trampoline. All the partying we did was crazy and I know anytime I hang out with you I will have a blast. I love Ya!

Oh Geez... Girl in my opinion you deserved life of the party. Ever since middle school, you have been one of my best friends. You are sooo hilarious and every funny time I can remember your in. You have always been there for me, and have always made me feel soo good about myself. I hope you get everything you want in life because you truly deserve it. You make the world a better place, and without you I wouldnt laugh half as much as I do. It sucks that we have been so far apart, but I know if I ever need anything I can always call you. I cant wait to party with you this summer And maybe we can search for some scary places like we both love to do LoL. I love ya girl so much and will always cherish our memories.

Hmm, where do I start.. Maybe I'll start when you used to be mean to me. LoL. I will never forget how we would always argue about every stupid little thing and always be fighting. Now I consider you one of my best friends. You are such a hilarious guy and it sucks being so far from you. I can always count on you to party with me, or even just drink LoL. You have a great personality and an awesome sense of humor. I cannot wait for this summer because I know we'll have a blast. We are two of the very few people who can party all night without passing out, haha. I miss you tons and can't wait for the partying to start up again.

Oh Lord. haha. I truly dont know where to begin with you. YOU ARE CRAZY! lol. You can handle your alcohol as good as me now and I'm so proud. lol. We have been best friends since elementary and over the years we have made some awesome memories. You crack me up all the time, and we definetly party it up with eachother. You have always been there for me and i want you to know how much it means to me. From our movie nights at your house to getting waisted for the hell of it. You completed my freshman year at college and I am so happy we've grown so close. I love ya girl!

Well I am not sure what to say to someone who doesnt like me, but here it goes. I know over the past couple of months I have done some shitty things to you and I know you don't want to forgive me and be friends which is fine. I just thought you should know that most of my greatest memories involve you. I had such an amazing four years in high school mainly because of you. You could always cheer me up when I was down and could definetly make me laugh. After Chicago I knew we would be best friends. Either when we were driving around aimlessly in the summer or having a blast in Cancun, no matter what I always had fun. I want you to know I am sorry about everything and maybe over the summer some things will change. If they dont and you dont want them to thats fine too. Just know that you were my best friend and I will always love you no matter what.

Well girl you are one of my good friends and I hope that never changes. I miss you so much and wish you didnt move home for 2nd semester. You were such a big part of my life at Western and when you left I was truly sad. I cannot beleive how long we have been friends, but I hope we continue to be good friends throughout the years. You are one of the sweetest girls I know, and I know I can always count on you for anything. I cannot wait to hang out this summer, I know we'll have a blast together. I love and miss ya!

Well girl I dont really know what to say. I am probably one of the luckiest Aunt's in the whole wide world to have such a close relationship w/ their neice. It's crazy that we are only a year apart. I love knowing that I can talk to you about anything, you might not know it but I share some of my biggest secrets with you. I hope you know that you can talk to me whenever you want, never hesitate to call me anytime. I love that we can hang out and laugh about nothing, and even though I got you waisted I hope that didnt ruin anything. LoL. We need to hang out a lot this summer and maybe even take a few road trips to Central and Toronto. I love you tons!

Shoot, where to begin. You are one of my best guy friends, and I am truly lucky to have such a sweet guy friend like you! Everytime we have hung out I've got nothing but good memories and laughs out of it. You can cheer me up and make me smile no matter how down I am or whats wrong. You care about everyone you love and dont mind showing it. You have amazing qualities that every girl looks for in a guy. I am so lucky to have had four years of high school to get to know you! I love you tons and want to party it up this summer a lot with you!

Well although we had elementary and middle school together, I didnt get to realize how great you were until we got to WMU. I am soo lucky to have lived right next to you/with you. I can always count on you for anything, and I always no who to run to with problems. You will always make time for me no matter how busy you are and I want you to know how much I appreciate it. You are such a sweet, funny, and amazing girl. I know your going to go far in life because theres something about you thats gonna take you wherever you wanna go. I hope we stay friends for a long time and always remember I am here for ya. I love ya!

Hmm.. Well we have had a crazy four years of high school together. I think our friendship started sophmore year and from there on out we just became better friends. Although for a while there we had our problems, we worked things out and grew even closer. You are a great guy and I will never forget any of our memories. You are the one person I can count on to party with me no matter what, and man have we partied over the years. LoL. You have been so good to me and always had my back. I'll never forget anything from just drinking at Joes house or my sisters, to Cancun or partying it up. I cant wait to party this summer with you!

Well girl, I really want to start off saying that I am sorry we havent stayed close. Although we went our seperate ways I will never forget any of the memories we have shared. You are on of my best girl friends. You have always been there for me and I will always be there for you. I love you tons and want things to go back to normal this summer. I cherish your friendship and dont want anything to change. Love Ya!

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 01:25:02 GMT

I have done all of the bold... How about you?

Snuck out of the house

Gotten lost in your city

Saw a shooting star

Been to any other countries besides the United States/Canada

Had a serious surgery

Gone out in public in your pajamas

Kissed a stranger

Hugged a stranger

Been in a fist fight

Been arrested

Done drugs

Smoked Cigs

Had alcohol

Pushed all the buttons on an elevator

Made out in an elevator

Swore at your parents

Kicked a guy where it hurts

Been in love

Been close to love

Been to a casino

Broken a bone

Been high

Skinny-dipped

Skipped school

Flashed someone

Saw a therapist

Done the splits

Played spin the bottle

Gotten stitches

Had an IV

Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour

Bitten someone

Been to Niagara Falls

Gotten the chicken pox

Kissed a member of the opposite sex

Kissed a member of the same sex

Crashed into a friend's car

Been to Japan

Ridden in a taxi

Been dumped

Been rejected

Shoplifted

Been fired

Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex

Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back

Stole something from your job

Gone on a blind date

Lied to a friend

Had a crush on a teacher

Celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans

Been to Europe

Slept with a co-worker

Been married

Gotten divorced

Had children

Saw someone die

Been to Africa

Been to Mexico

Been on a plane

Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show

Thrown up in a bar

Purposely set a part of yourself on fire

Eaten Sushi

Been snowboarding

Met someone in person from the internet

Been moshing at a rock show

Cut yourself on purpose

Been to a moto cross show

Lost a child

Gone to college

Graduated college

Done hard drugs

Tried killing yourself

Another weekend comes to an end!

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 06:19:12 GMT

Well it's already the end of the weekend, and man did it go by fast!! My weekends start on Thursday and Thursday was pretty boring. I didnt do much of anything. I mean we went out to eat for Ash's birthday which was fun but after that we just watched TV and I went to bed. Friday I woke up excited to head home. At about 2 me ash and kris headed home for the rest of the weekend. I went home basically because I have mono and just wanted to be sick at home. Friday night me and my mom rented two movies, we watched The Prince and Me on Friday. It was really cute and it was just nice to hang with her. After the movie we just went to bed. Saturday, I woke up and me and my mom went and had lunch and then headed over to my Grandmas to clean some stuff up. It was pretty hard to be there but after 2 hours, my dad called us home. When we got there my 2 brothers Duane and Darryl were there, and I just hung out with them and laughed my ass off at their stories. Saturday night me and my mom watched the second movie we rented which was Garden State. I really liked it, even though it was different. Then this morning I got up at about 8 and kristin and her sister picked me up and we headed back to Western. I don't know why but lately I have been having a hard time leaving home. Once I'm gone I'm okay but leaving is soo hard. I think it's cause of my Grandma passing away. I don't know I'm sure this phase will pass. But today I did nothing but slept allll day. I dont even know why but I wasss soooooooooooooooooo tired!!! But thats it, I just wanted to tell everyone about my boring but nice weekend. I am already looking forward to next weekend, I am just praying that the Mono is out of my system. But I'm gonna go..
Goodnight!

Loong Day!!

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 04:19:05 GMT

Today has seemed like an extremly loooong day!! I didnt wake up until about 2 this afternoon, I know it's late but I have mono, so its aloud LoL. Then instead of getting up and getting ready I just layed around and watched Pretty Woman. (I love that movie). Then at about 5:00 I got in the shower, and headed off to math class with Des at about 5:40... Math was loong and boring but after that me ash and des went to Olive Garden for Ash's b-day. It was fun and we had some laughs.. And then the three of us came back here and watched the OC.

Now I'm just hanging out doing nothing. I am telling ya, MONO SUCKS! I can't do anything for like atleast 2 weeks.. AHH!!!!!!!! But oh well, I talked to my mom this morning and she kind of convinced me to come home this weekend, soooooo I think im heading home in the morning to chill at home, and try to get better there. Even though I was just talking to Ash and she said Mono can stay in your system for like 2 months... EWWWWWWWWW!! that would totally be my luck lol.. But I dunno I'm not feeling to bad soo it's all good.

But I am gonna go, Fear Factors on and thats like one of my favorite shows.. I'm just hoping Des gets in a better mood so this night isnt soo shitty.

Sooooo I will talk to everyone later.. Goodnight!!

Just Bored!

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 06:25:58 GMT

Well it's 1:18 a.m. on Wednesday night, and I am pretty awake... Although I have Mono, I am feeling pretty good. The shitty spells come and go. But I don't know I am just bored right now and decided to write a little in my journal. I noticed I only wrote in it when I was sad or mad or anything else thats depressing and I want to stop doing that. I guess it's just my way of getting things off my chest. But I don't know thats not gonna happen any more cause I dont want to bore my readers with my depressing shit.. LoL..

Well I am going to hop in bed, I'm sure once my head hits the pillow I'll doze off pretty swiftly. But I love everyone, and goodnight to all :-D

MuAh! XoXoXoX

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 06:15:17 GMT

Aww.. My neice Meg re-did my Live Journal for me and now it's sooo cute.. I Love it girl and thanks.

Don't really know!

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 01:59:58 GMT

It has been an unbeleivably hard week and a half. For so loong I was looking forward to Spring Break. I don't even really know why either, I mean it's not like I was going anywhere or doing anything special, but I guess I just wanted a break from school, and wanted to be home with my family. The entire month of February I was counting down the days, and February 24th which was a Thursday was my last day of class and the start of my 10 day break.

That Thursday I had class at 6:00 - 7:15 and Des, Jess, Kristin and I were all planning on heading home right after class. That morning everything was good, we were all excited about Spring Break and all packed up. But all of a sudden everything changed and in one minute my entire life was different. I had gotten a call from my house, I really didnt think much of it when I answered it to here my sisters voice, who goes to Central. I was wondering why she was home, but it didnt really phase me to much. After talking for about 5 minutes she hit me with the bad news. My Grandma Warren, my dads mom, had passed away that morning at around 7:00 a.m.

I was in absolute complete shock. I had no idea what to do and a thousand things were going through my head. I just broke into tears and asked God why about a million times in my head. My mom got on the phone and tried to reassure me that everything was going to be okay, but I didnt think so, and I knew things werent going to be alright. That whole day seemed to go by so slow, just because I wanted to be home. Finally math class was over and we were on the road. I arrived at my house where my mom dad two brothers and neice and nephew were. The minute I saw my parents I broke down. I was soo unbeleivably sad. Later that night my brother Al came over and my sister Beck came home and they both made me feel so much better. They both talked to me and comforted me.

The viewing was already the next day. At about noon, me and my family headed to the funeral home where my Grandmother was. It was sooooo hard to see her laying there, although she looked beautiful, she just didnt look like herself. I was at the funeral home from noon until 9 pm, and when it came time to leave her at night I wanted to just stay with her. Knowing she was there by herself broke my heart. Thankfully my brothers came back to our house to cheer us all up.

That Saturday was the day we had to say our final goodbyes. It was soo unbeleivably hard, I couldnt beleive how much it hurt to see her for the last time. But we had to do it, so we said our final goodbyes and went to White Chapel (the cemetary) where she was being buried. After a short mass, me and all of the immediete family got to see my grandma placed in the wall of the mosaleum, placed right above my Grandpa, whos name was Reed who died of a heart attack in 1973. As she was being put in, we all put roses on her casket and left the sight. It was so hard and sad and I miss her so much.

Following that was the luncheon where my family and I, and other close relatives and friends got together, to have lunch. It was really nice, and it made me realize how great of a family I have. I am one of the luckiest girls in the world. My family is truly amazing, and I wish that everyone could be so blessed. After that all my brothers, sisters, neices and nephews came back to my house to keep my Dad company and try to take his mind off of things. Later that night, my neice spent the night, and me her and my 2 sisters played games all night and watched TV.

The next day we woke up and headed over to my Grandmas to help my dad clean some stuff up. I never realized how much she saved until I walked around her house and looked at it all. I mean she didnt throw out anything. Being in her house was sooo hard, it made me wish that I visited her more often and just did more things for her. Just going through some of her things in her house has taught me sooo much about her its truly amazing. She was an amazing women, she grew up in the South and although she wasnt the most affectionate person, you knew she loved her family soo much.

I miss her soo much already. I didnt even think she was in that bad of a condition, my mom had kind of lied to me to keep me sane while I was up at school. I didnt even get a chance to say goodbye to her. I feel soo bad all the time and wish I would have visited her more often. She was always so good to me. But for about the last 5 years of her life she has wanted to pass away. She was in such good condition until about 2 months ago when she fell and broke her hip. Once that happened she did nothing to get better. I think she was lonely, and wanted to go to heaven with my Grandpa. It's reassuring knowing that their finally together again. They have been seperated for 33 years and now they can be happy again. I have a ring of hers now that I wear on my finger all the time, reminding me of her and the memories we shared together. She lived for an amazing 87 years and I love her and miss her so much but I know shes in a better place...

Love Ya Grams!!

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 04:19:16 GMT

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?

Or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.

Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own....when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?

People live, but people die. And I want to tell you that you are a friend. If you died tomorrow , you would be in my heart <3!!! Would I be in yours?

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life, look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend,
someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember I LOVE YOU!

SoOoOooo Frustrated!!

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 01:16:37 GMT

WoW!!

Soo it's Wednesday and I have had by far the worst week I've had in a looong time! I don't know how much I can take of this, I seriously am on the verge of freaking out.

Monday was alright, I think I started the week off pretty bad, I wanted Thursday to come so fast that it just took forever.

Tuesday I talked to my mom, and got the most absolute horrible news, she told me that my Grandma is dying. I couldnt beleive it, I asked my mom if she was talking and she said no, basically meaning I'm not even going to be able to talk to her before she passes away. I've never lost a family member, I really don't know how to handle it. And it really ruined my week, making me want to be home even more.

Wednesday which is today got even worse!!! We went to look at the house we were planning on getting. It was going to be me, kristin, jessica, kim, kc, and this girl Jen. Well we got our applications and we were going to sign for it tomorrow before 4:30. Well today at last minute Jess decided to drop out. Instead of the 5 of us that are left trying to figure something out, kc, kim and jen decided to re-sign on their house, and conveniently they had an extra room for Kristin. Leaving me the only one screwed. Since they have a place to live and Jess wants to live in the dorms I am completly screwed out of everything. I should of seen it coming though, Jess was never to sure, but I guess what I dont understand is why should we agree in the first place. And it's funny how things worked out perfectly for everyone else. Soo Guess what I am doing next year.. COMING HOME!! WooHoo, I am sooo fucking pumped.

Soo as you guys can see it's just one thing after another, I am going to be so happy when tomorrow is over. I just want to be home with my family. I'm hoping this weekend will be fun. I'm looking forward to seeing Beth and Lori. I was looking forward to Thursday and Friday night, but not so much anymore. Oh Well!! I was really looking forward to shopping in Toronto for my room next year, but doesnt look like that will be happening.

Well, I guess I am going to read or something, I'm in such a shitty mood I just want to wake up and it be tomorrow afternoon, doesnt look like thats going to happen.

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 09:07:31 GMT

One More Day!

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 07:04:14 GMT

One More Day Until Break!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 05:33:55 GMT

Wow what a weird way to end a weekend... Today is obviously Sunday, Thank God and I just got done cleaning the bathroom, I mean I went to work on that nasty thing and it DEFINETLY needed it. So yea, when I checked online I had a message from Hoss. I got excited like usual until I saw what it said. It was pretty crazy, it basically said I stole her car when I was drunk and ran it into a snow bank, which is not what happened. So i dont know, I called her and left a loong message, hoepfully she'll get it and call me back so we can work it out.

Anyways........ I'm wide awake and should be studying. I think instead I'll just watch some tv or something. Well I just wanted to put in a little entry but I'm gonna go.. GOODNIGHT!

What A Loong Weekend!

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 07:58:36 GMT

Soo it's finally Sunday, but not technically seeing as how it's 2:30 in the morning on Saturday, I dunno I'm confusing myself, anyways..... This weekend has been extremly looong. I didnt do much, seeing as how I gave up drinking beer and actually didnt want to drink at all this weekend, I did nothing. Thursday night we all just hung out. Des and Jess had a few drinks and then we all watched Napoleon and laughed our asses off. Then Friday night was weird, I was having such a bad day for some reason, and I took a nap from like 8-11, then when I woke up, Des and Jess were trying to convince me to go to a party, but I resisted and stayed home to lay low. So me and Linz walked to the movie store around 1 am and rented sex and the city, then we ordered some Chinese and stayed up till like 6 in the morning, lol kinda like a slumber, haha. I actually had a good time we love that show. Then today I woke up around 11 and we all just layed around in our pajamas till like 3. Then we got ready and went to eat to Olive Garden. Once we were all done eating, we came back here and hung out, Me and Linz finished the third season of Sex and The City and thats about it.

I am really happy it's Sunday, I think thats the first time I've said that in a while. I don't know why but I am really looking forward to coming home for Spring Break. Even though I dont have huge plans, I get to hang out with my friends and I am going to Toronto to hang w/ my sisters which is going to be a blast. I also get to see Lucy and my Grandma's which will be nice.

Also we FINALLY found a house to live in next year, and man are we gonna have some kick ass parties in it! I am soooo pumped and it is soooooo cute. I cannot wait to move in, it is going to be crazy that I am living in a house. I am gonna be so grown up lol, yea right. Hopefully I will be able to concentrate on school and not party to much!!!

On a more sad note, Lindsay is moving out. I seriously think it's really weird that she is leaving us. This whole year has been a blast with the four of us and we have all been getting along really well until this semester. I know things change between ppl. but it just seems like the years coming to an end. I dont know it's hard to explain and I think it's gonna be a lot different with out her in the suit. Hmm we'll see how things go from here.

But I guess I am going to lay down, I feel like a have tons of shit to do tomorrow, even though I really dont. Reading and studying a little bit then maybe cleaning, sounds awesome doesnt it? LoL. Well Des is falling asleep and me and Linz are gonna watch Angles in The Outfield, LoL. WoooHooo!!!! GoodNight Everyone Love Ya Tons!!

Sat, 19 Feb 2005 04:22:12 GMT

So yea it's Friday night, and I am doing absolutly nothing. This entire week I have been feeling shitty off and on, and lately we have been drinking way to much so I decided to give it a rest this weekend. It's been kind of a shitty week and pretty stressful so it's kind of nice not doing anything, but on the other hand it's definetly not something I would usually do.

Well today, Me Kris Jess and Kim all went to look at a house that we were considering to live in next year. Well thats definetly not going to happen, it was a shit hole and we were all disgusted. So we drove around for like 2 hours looking and only found one that we liked. It's actually pretty sweet, it had 6 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a nice living room, a descent kitchen, and an all right basement. I like it a lot though, but of course its expensive so who knows.

But anyways, I cannot wait to go home for Spring Break, we only have 6 days and I am soo excited. I havent been home in a while, and I am excited to see everyone. I am especially excited to see my Grandma. She's back in the hospital and not doing good at all, I think thats why I have been in a pretty shitty mood this whole week. I just wish I was close to home so I could be there for my mom and dad, but I dunno.

Well, Des and Jess are headed out to a party, so I think I am going to lay down or do something with myself, I am just going to be happy when this day is over, it's been such a shitty one, Oh Well. Later!

*Simply YOU.*
What you go by:	Em or Emmi
How you feel at this exact moment:	Sad
What youre wearing:	T-Shirt and Comfy Pants
Your cold/hot:	Cold
Where do you wish you were:	Home
With who:	My Family
*RECENT.*
Last drink:	Water
Last meal/snack:	Pizza
Last song you heard:	Ashlee Simpson Shadow
Last TV show watched:	Sweet Sixteen
Last words spoken:	Goodnight
Last cry:	This Afternoon
Last laugh:	A couple hours ago
*FUTURE.*
Where you want to live:	New York City
Career:	Crime Scene Investigator
Pets:	Cat
Children:	NONE
Marriage:	Forsure
Car:	Like a 1960 Mustang Convertible
House/Apartment/Condo:	House
*FAVORITES.*
Song(s):	Kid Rock "I Am"
Color(s):	Pink
Opposite sex hair color:	Brown
Opposite sex eye color:	Blue or Green
Snack(s):	Wheat Thins
Season:	Spring Or Fall
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

*~Em~*

Lets seeeeee....

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It's Been A While..

It's been a while!

This is for all the college kids...

Another weekend comes to an end....

Feel Like I Havent Updated In A While!

Answer The Following Questions Using Only Song Titles Of One Band/Musician..

WHAT THE FUCK??!!!

Aww I thought this was cute..

Instructions: Write 15 statements directed at 15 different people. Never tell which one is for who.

Another weekend comes to an end!

Loong Day!!

Just Bored!

Don't really know!

SoOoOooo Frustrated!!

One More Day!

What A Loong Weekend!

~Em~